That night I feel like shit.I wanna quit,and asked myself can i just be normal for a bit.I ran to your house that night,I got along but the trips always feel so long.And, I found myself tryin' to stay by the phone.'Cause your voice always helps me to not feel so alone.But when I met you,I opened my mouth and I don't have much to say,I feel like an idiot, just like a child who is to nurse a grievance.So, I want you to know it's fucked up that I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',tellin' you that I've had it with you and your past,me and the my memories here sayin' "I love you so much"
Back to home,I can't stop me to thinkin' about you.You know the place where you used to live, used to shower,sleep, smile and cry, used to have a little party every Festival with candy by the pile.But now, you only stop by every once in a while. Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time, with anything to keep the thought of you from my mind, I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way, I hope you can call me if you find you have somethin' to say, and I'll tell you, I want you to know it's fucked up,but I think that's not gonna happen.Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,for why you're not around, and feeling so useless,it seems this thing has been true all along,
Now you're gone,I gotta say a couple things,even though I know that we're finished,I don't want you to leave without knowin',just where I'm comin' from, babe!I just wanna say I made a big mistake,I can tell by the look on your face,you ain't tryin' to hear what I'm sayin'.And now I gotta face the fact that I should been a better man,the kind of man that you needed,would been better off.If I done right by you,I coulda done this, I could done that,but I know I can't go back,'Cause now it's just too late and I'm sayin' should~ would~ could~Girl, you know it's killin' me that I shoul have done my best to love you, baby!I shoul have placed nothing above you and now it's killin' me more than you know!Letting you go, that's what I know that I should.
You closed your first blog when I hurted you those days.Now I close mine too.In this blog,I never mention you.But now I use "you",not "she" in this last artcle,maybe it's the last time I use "you".And maybe it's the last words that I say to you.So,just let me call you LIL' RABBIT MEOW MEOW…………
LIL' RABBIT MEOW MEOW…………GOODBYE
2002-2008…………GOODBYE
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I JUZ DON’GIVA FUK，CUZ GOD SENT ME 2 PISS DA WORLD OFF！
